leave the box

The time has finally come

for me to feel less alone

in this collective state

of static pause.

The time has finally come

for people to see

that even while one is boxed

one can breathe,

one can think,

feel,

be free.

One can recharge, 

regenerate inner engines,

and just silently be,

exist. 

Life is not all about adventures in the wild,

but also about adventures within one’s self,

within the confines of our spirit,

and the breaks from the world

that somehow let us bloom further

expanding in space

until the box is shattered open.

savor of youth

I wanted it to happen. 

This fusion

Of God knows what elements

A collision of youth

Sweet and bitter flavors I never tasted

Up until 

My hands opened that door

To embrace some perfumed creature

Coming at me from a soothing place

Like trouble.

My certitude is now compromised,

My wisdom perturbed. 

Always predictive,

Never visionless,

Except for this moment

When my intuition flees 

Fearful butterfly 

Or rather daunted 

By the brutal tenderness 

Of his wings 

On which senses are uplifted

To darker skies

Of sinful heavens.

Now, tell me, ruthless bird:

Am I on a trajectory that ends in flames or seventh heaven?

 

couleurs cachées

I see myself in a garden, a heavenly garden, with the world’s most colorful flowers… It is so ecstatic it could blind your eyes. I am strolling around smelling each one. They are all unique with smells that are beautifully distinguished… and yet, I feel more and more empty as I smell each flower… Like an absence reinforcing itself with each aroma… until I end up in a place where the garden seemingly becomes flower-free. I dazzle at the clear vision of nothingness, a certain void that for some reason dizzies me. All I see is one flower weakly yet bravely surviving on the famished ground, but it looks as if it’s been there for years, decades, maybe even centuries… It is plain white, the white of dreams and complete happiness… I walk around it in chaotic rhythms, and as I stare at the field with no colors, flowers, or life, I find myself. I feel complete. I smell the white flower; it smells dark, intensely dark… devoid of sweetness. My body trembles. Some sort of magic is around me, I know it. I am drunk like a fiercely flowing river, full of life in a place where the only sign of life in sight is a flower that’s hardly being sustained by its own roots.

One wonders…Why would a soul feel empty in a field full of colors, yet completely whole in a field with nothing but a struggling white flower?

Dear… behind every vivid mask lies an empty soul, and behind every pale facade lies a soul full of colors.

 

january thoughts

Maybe it is true I am just a lie.

But hearing that doesn’t make me cry.

Because what if nothing is real? What if existence feeds on its illusive nature?

Sometimes words write themselves down like the heartbeats in our shattered hearts.

Don’t ask me who I am. I am far from knowing the answer to that myself.

All I know is that I love dreams.

I love white and purity.

I love love.

I feel everything so deeply.

I … was born to be free.

Facing peculiar paths, I wonder how I always knew they were mine to take…