leave the box

The time has finally come

for me to feel less alone

in this collective state

of static pause.

The time has finally come

for people to see

that even while one is boxed

one can breathe,

one can think,

feel,

be free.

One can recharge, 

regenerate inner engines,

and just silently be,

exist. 

Life is not all about adventures in the wild,

but also about adventures within one’s self,

within the confines of our spirit,

and the breaks from the world

that somehow let us bloom further

expanding in space

until the box is shattered open.

savor of youth

I wanted it to happen. 

This fusion

Of God knows what elements

A collision of youth

Sweet and bitter flavors I never tasted

Up until 

My hands opened that door

To embrace some perfumed creature

Coming at me from a soothing place

Like trouble.

My certitude is now compromised,

My wisdom perturbed. 

Always predictive,

Never visionless,

Except for this moment

When my intuition flees 

Fearful butterfly 

Or rather daunted 

By the brutal tenderness 

Of his wings 

On which senses are uplifted

To darker skies

Of sinful heavens.

Now, tell me, ruthless bird:

Am I on a trajectory that ends in flames or seventh heaven?

 

couleurs cachées

I see myself in a garden, a heavenly garden, with the world’s most colorful flowers… It is so ecstatic it could blind your eyes. I am strolling around smelling each one. They are all unique with smells that are beautifully distinguished… and yet, I feel more and more empty as I smell each flower… Like an absence reinforcing itself with each aroma… until I end up in a place where the garden seemingly becomes flower-free. I dazzle at the clear vision of nothingness, a certain void that for some reason dizzies me. All I see is one flower weakly yet bravely surviving on the famished ground, but it looks as if it’s been there for years, decades, maybe even centuries… It is plain white, the white of dreams and complete happiness… I walk around it in chaotic rhythms, and as I stare at the field with no colors, flowers, or life, I find myself. I feel complete. I smell the white flower; it smells dark, intensely dark… devoid of sweetness. My body trembles. Some sort of magic is around me, I know it. I am drunk like a fiercely flowing river, full of life in a place where the only sign of life in sight is a flower that’s hardly being sustained by its own roots.

One wonders…Why would a soul feel empty in a field full of colors, yet completely whole in a field with nothing but a struggling white flower?

Dear… behind every vivid mask lies an empty soul, and behind every pale facade lies a soul full of colors.

 

apparition

 

It was almost midnight when a snowstorm hit the village. Every living creature took shelter; animals in their grottoes, humans in their dwellings.

 All… except for her.

There she is sitting on a bench, cigarette between her purplish fingers, eyes closed, trembling, breathing into frozen air as if it were her first time taking breath, or maybe her last… The snow is covering her figure as a mother’s womb covers a child…

“Are you trying to kill yourself lady?”

 She opens her eyes, no one’s there. The stranger must be behind her. She doesn’t move one muscle or respond, closes her eyes again, thinking it must be an auditory hallucination caused by the severe cold.

“Lady. You alright?”, he utters as he places his hand on her shoulder.

Her body finally reacts, her soul awakens. Eyes wide open, she swiftly stands up and turns around. She’s not dreaming. His touch was real, so was his voice, and now his strangely angelic presence facing her quivering body. She wants to say “I’m fine” but the words never leave her mouth. Instead she’s just standing there staring at him, amazed. They are both somehow entranced, looking one another in the eye, eyes that seem to have found home….

 Minutes of infinity later she asks:

“are you God or man?”

He says:

 “for you I’ll be both”.

 

the end

as you are

But I don’t want to be normal.. even if I can be. Whatever I keep losing by being different is no loss.

Take me as I am or walk out the door. 

Free yourself and others by speaking your heart, but more essentially by “being” your heart.

Whatever you’ll express and be will either draw solid walls or break them.  

We’re not all meant to click together, smell the same odors, feel the rareness of magic. 

Do not fear rejection, fear the mask.

Searching for the cure to your wounded soul? Climax on being who you are. 

january thoughts

Maybe it is true I am just a lie.

But hearing that doesn’t make me cry.

Because what if nothing is real? What if existence feeds on its illusive nature?

Sometimes words write themselves down like the heartbeats in our shattered hearts.

Don’t ask me who I am. I am far from knowing the answer to that myself.

All I know is that I love dreams.

I love white and purity.

I love love.

I feel everything so deeply.

I … was born to be free.

Facing peculiar paths, I wonder how I always knew they were mine to take…

Tombée du ciel

The little girl got to the garden… It was too clean and clear, not even one sign of color or flowers or anything alive… Just plain green all over the space… Nothing but grass, sleeping grass… But she felt that there was something there that was worth finding… She just couldn’t see it… She kept wandering in the garden all day long in vain… till she got so tired that she fell asleep on the grass.She had a dream… In her dream she sees a shadow. The beautifully shaped shadow smiles at her, yet the second it almost touches her hand she wakes up. Only to realize that it’s dark now… and surprisingly, it is always in the dark that we find what we look for… She saw that there was a light coming out of somewhere in the garden… She thought “could my instinct be right after all?” The terror of the darkness was so suspenseful that she couldn’t wait to reach the light… What is it and where is it coming from? The closer she got to the source the more blind she became…

Closer and closer, there it was, right there: a fallen star.